i remember that i sent a post in this blog about my aimes in 2009
here u go the draft ...


Recently I saw an episode of one of ma favorite cartoon shows ever... little maroco
She was making a list of things that she's willing to do in the New Year and I said to myself "why the hell?!"
After that I initiated to write a letter for miss 2009 and brought you a draft.

Dear miss new year I was so glad when I knew that you are coming and I wrote a couple things that I want to do during you :

1- I am willing to get closer to god.
2- I want to get my driving license and a car, too.
3- I want to improve my weak fallen apart English.
4- I want to believe that '' talking without thinking is shouting without aiming''.
5- I want to stop cursing people and to reduce saying '' bit** " to who ever upsets me and " sh** "when I get mad.
6- I should take more care abut myself, clothes etc... And try as I can not to get dirty by colors while I draw.
7- I must learn French.
8- I want a girlfriend, P.S: I am available ladies: P.
9- I want to increase my weight to built muscles unlike last time when all the weight went to my hips.
10- I want to concentrate more in my study... no more playing >_<.
11- No more hiding I am going to be active and I want to be more connected with my society... Make more friends… am I?
12- I hope to be able to see all the great series and movies and to use a great internet connection.
13- I want to save money otherwise I will be in a new level of the word '' poor ''. So please 2009 be good to me.


well .. from all the 13 goals i've atchived 7 i am so proud after all 7 is a good number !
:)

I give up

I threw my hands up

I give up

“Life became unbearable “ she said

And I totally agree !

If there’s more pain to come

I am not really sure if can handle it

I am sick of fighting back

This year .. no promises , dreams or good expectations

I’ll just live with the grain

And let what want to happened happens ..

…

Today I returned to Amy lee’s songs

I don’t know how and why ?

I missed her .. but did she miss me back ?

Where are you Amy .. we need new songs

We need you to scream for us

…

I don’t know why I don’t present good stuff in this

Blog .. it suppose to be a happy place

I just keep crying my letters out

and whining ..

maybe changing the colors would help?

…

University is sucks

This semester I have a huge problem

I am late and because of not taking a stupid

Course .. just one stupid course

Just like any other shit

I am unable to take three courses !

What the F !

I am so mad and angry

Watching my mate graduating .. working

And all the good things !

And I am standing here like damn !

I’ll never let this happen !

This year was so rough .. just like her pervious sisters

Nobody to blame ! .. Nobody

I am sick this love story I am living

Some how now I feel like no need

To txt u or kissing your ass

To feel me .. all those feelings inside tortures me

I had to let them go

…

We’re Brock

Latterly

My father start to take money from me .. again

I don’t know where my old man is going in his plans

I hope he don’t get hurt .. he will never take another fail

Let him take all he want

…

Back to university .. everything’s fucked up

My marks are as low as possible

If I was saved from being under notice

Couple times .. why not now?

I don’t care

I just want to live my life with no fear

On my back disturbing me .. make my shade my tears out

And create fake lovers .. I don’t want this anymore

…

I want to runaway

Through my passport in fire

New name .. new ID

New place ,, new problems

I want to walk near the with my naked feet

And run and run to the edge of the seen

And scream all the pain , the fear and hope

Away .. getting rid from my skin ..

And be an ugly unnoticeable bird

FREE

…

Till another mood comes

Bye

الإحراج ضرائب مقدمة ادفعها!!

لا ادري هل أنا السبب أم أن الإحراج ضرائب مقدمة ادفعها لخطايا حياة أخرى ؟

الأسبوع المنصرم على سبيل المثال ..

دائما ما أحب الوصل للغرف الدراسية بخطوات عجلى لأنني ادري أنني اذا تأخرت

فأنني امنح فعل التأخر حقه.. و مع الوقت الكثير المتبقي لكي يصل المحاضر

لا غنى لي عن الاستمتاع بوقتي بسماع الأغاني المفضلة لدي

خصوصا أن يداي قد وقعتا أخر اسطوانات فرقة ال(البونك روك) paramore

و عندما يتعلق الأمر بفضلى فرق الروك الأمريكية لابد من أن يأخذ الصوت حقه

All I wanted was you قد يبدو لكم الاسم عاديا لكن هذه الأغنية بالذات لها مفعول السحر –علي على الأقل-

فهي تبعثني من سكوني و تزلزل الأرض من تحتي.. لا استطيع المقاومة

مع مرور الوقت أحسست بالطالبات و هن يدخلن و يخرجن من القاعة الدراسية

و تتعالى أصواتهن و ضحكاتهن.. هل اكترث ,, طبعا لا !

بدء الشباب بالدخول و لاحظت علامات الاستغراب التي سرعان ما بدأت تتحول لتعابير

وجوه على وشك الانفجار ضحكا .. هل اكترث ,, طبعا لا !.. اقترب مني احد الزملاء و أشار لي باز اله السماعات.. ماذا يريد هذا المغفل؟ .. هل يجب أن يأتي المتطفلون ليفسدوا علي جوي الخاص

و عندما أبعدت السماعات عن أذني فإذا بالصوت يتدفق الى أذني و لكن بطريقة مختلفة !

أشحت بنظري الى الموبايل .. إليكم المفاجأة !

قابس السماعات غير موصول بشكل كامل .. نعم لقد شاركني الفصل الدراسي

بجو الروك أند رول .. عندها تحول لون وجهي الى أقصى درجات الاحمرار

و تعالت الضحكات و الصياح من حولي.. أصبحت صغيرا بحجم حبات العنب .. تفاعلا مع الصف أخذت بالضحك معهم مع أن النيران تغلي في معدتي

و منذها لم اعد احضر قبل المحاضرة

فالوصول متأخرا أفضل من الوصول و إقامة الحفلات الصاخبة على مسمع الجميع !

in <3 with twilight !

Hi guys

Ummm !

it's such a long freakini time wallah

i am back to bloging

hopefully this time

i wont stop no matter

what happens

so i know that most of

you guys heard or

already have seen

the movie of da year

the new moon saga

^^

well i am a huge fan

and still waiting for

a clear dvd copy

to watch it until

then i just keep

staring to that poster

like an obssessive fan

take alook at my room

see ya

me back

^^