More me...

Lately I have been thinking alote about my life, my mistakes and me.
When I look behind, I realize that if I have done something wrong
I just keep redo it over and over again...!
Yes, I do... How many times I trust people who let me down eventually
How many times I fall into sins and I promise my self that I will not do this any more...well … is it just me ?
Am I addicted of doin' mistakes over and over again?
How long will I do this?
How many times I made lists of "I won't do… "Then I do
I feel like a criminal…
I owe myself better than this … I always tells myself that I am a real person and everything around me is fake and shitty!
Ummmmm … I don’t think I am that angel after all...
I guess it is true I really enjoy repeating the same silly things I do
I never learn... that's why everyone around me uses me again and aging...
Until then, when time comes …when I say ' enough ' to the weakness inside of me and confront myself...
And scream loudly " I don't wonna do this anymore"!
I only then, l won't … I will be more me.